Realization!

The term exams, internals and the finals – it’s pretty much similar to school life. I’m doing my 3rd year in college and just turned 20, passing through the system pretty much effortlessly without stirring too much – smooth sailing! But the thing is I’ve never been able to figure my interests or my passion, it keeps fluctuating. However, the positive point here is I’ve never really had boundaries for them. And so basically my natural assumption or self-driven force actually states someday I’ll be successful. 
 …and then something interesting happened, a sudden little pop-up in my tiny brain about stepping into the real world, but I’ve like two more years for my graduation. My brain’s got all stuck up in tasting the “real-life sucks” stuff. To be honest,  I was on full fire and highly motivated waiting for a chance to prove myself and make an impact on life, on society.

Then probably my first ever vague approach fetched me an opportunity to host a show in one of the popular shopping malls in the city. Yeah, a very good beginning!

Automatically with full battery on, I started exploring more in the real world looking for more opportunities, I realized what I had been was pretty much in every individuals’ mind. And slowly I started to lose a few chances and dealt with disappointments. Presumptuous, I know. I lost all my fire and totally deactivated felt like I was in the eye of a hurricane where it is a low pressure area fully surrounded by high pressure. 

Instantly, I realized that I don’t live in a glitter-filled life and have got into some unfortunate timeless classic grinding ride. Shifting from a smooth sailing boat to an uncontrollable roller coaster ride is huge!

I do know it’s just the beginning, but the bitter truth is though the real world sucks I kinda love it! Eventually, what is life without struggle.  🙂 

A do or die moment

Well, it has been two days after I completed my 12^th board exams. Everybody has an aim in life. Aim or ambition is the inner desire of human. Many dreams of being rich, famous and resplendence among their ambitions, but for me, to deliver humankind through treatment is the maximal ambition of all.

When I was schooled math wasn’t my thing but science was. But then I already fixed the aim of life to be a doctor. Because of the thoughts on white coat and stethoscope I had half sleepless nights and the other half on dreaming about it. More than terming it as an aim or ambition, I would term it as an addiction. Yes! My determination and dedication were all through it.  I never had any desire to narrow and to mutate as a specialist, a physician, a gynecologist or an ophthalmologist.  But then being one is not only my dream but also my parent’s.

Well, it’s not always the same story from the beginning, in fact, it was totally different. A clear goal and parents support, all set? No, there started the problem. Despite doing nothing, these people so called relatives entered.

“Spending so much for a girl?” “Let her do a simple degree and marry her to someone!” the relatives suggested. Overhearing such typical dialogues, there developed an inferiority complex and a question to my own self, “Do I really deserve to become a doctor?”. But it was more like a do or die moment!

Thank god my dad was a great pillar of support to me and his words “If you want something, you should fight for it” and that’s the wake-up call. Not only me but all my family members are now waiting for that one moment were the responsibility of treating mankind is in my hands.

Ignoring all the negativeness I decided to chase my passion knowing the responsibilities and feeling the heaviness. There started my journey of life. Here I come, to taste success and back my own negative people.